Believe in love

I still believe in magick. That makes sense, right, since I am a witch. But I am also a human being and sometimes we lose faith, sometimes we lose our way and doubt even out deepest beliefs. My faith in magick has never wavered. My belief in other important values has borne its scars unfortunately.

Love. Four letters with such dastardly consequences.

Trying to explain how much you love someone is fruitless. They will never understand and probably not actually care all that much anyway. Love is deeply personal. It can be labeled by others but never understood what is in your heart. You wish maybe for a moment to share your love but words are cheap and meaningless and in the end you look like you are just trying to justify the unjustifiable.

I’ve had my doubts. And when I doubt I turn to what I know to be true – magick.

I whisper an incantation in the darkness and light a rosewood candle that a dear friend made for me. The scent immediately fills the bedroom and shadows bounce off the walls. I think about love eternal and know that no matter what has happened, no matter how dark in the depths of despair I have been, my love has been like this candle, flickering but still lighting the way.

I am not better because someone loves me. I am better because I have loved them. And in even the glorious failing of that love I still see the light as it fills the spaces of darkness and illuminates my path.

Love will find a way. And so will I.

Green Tara Mantra

I really need this right now. Spiritually it has been a difficult time for me as a Buddhist. I live my life as a pagan, a witch in all my daily dealings but my religion – my true spirit belong to Buddhism and is embodied by the Goddess Green Tara.

I need her more than ever right now. I need her guidance.

I say her mantra 108 times and it does not seem to be enough for  I need to be saying it 108 times by 10,000 times.

Here is a beautiful rendition of the mantra set to music and sung by Chinese artist Su Ching-yen.

In Tibetan “Om Tare Tuttare Ture Soha”
In Sanskrit “Oṃ Tāre Tuttāre Ture Svāhā”

Tibetan culture, and some others, green is considered to include all the other colors.

The practice of Green Tara helps to overcome fear and anxiety, but devotees also believe that she can grant wishes, eliminate suffering of all kinds and bring happiness.

When called upon, she instantaneously saves us from eight specific calamities. The First Dalai Lama lists the 8, and interprets them as representative of corresponding defects, flaws, or obscurations:

  1.  lions and pride
  2. wild elephants and delusions
  3. forest fires and hatred
  4.  snakes and envy
  5. robbers and fanatical views
  6.  prisons and avarice
  7. floods and lust
  8. demons and doubt


OM represents Tara’s sacred body, speech and mind.

TARE means liberating from all discontent.

TUTTARE means liberating from the eight fears, the external dangers, but mainly from the internal dangers, the delusions.

TURE means liberating from duality; it shows the true cessation of confusion.

SOHA means “may the meaning of the mantra take root in my mind.”

According to Tibetan Buddhism’s beliefs, this mantra can not only eliminate diseases, troubles, disasters and karma, but will also bring believers blessings, longer life and even the wisdom to transcend one’s circle of reincarnation.