I was saddened to hear the news that the lead actor in the Starz series Spartacus, Andy Whitfield passed away at age 39 of non-Hodgkin Lymphoma. I watched the show when he starred in it and was not able to get back into it after he left because of his illness.

Andy Whitfield was a great looking man, fit and healthy, in the prime of his life. While no one deserves to die from cancer, it hit me very hard to see this man cut down at the height of his fame and the pinnacle of his fitness. He played Spartacus, a hero, a warrior, and he infused the character with a great deal of depth which could have been left wanting in another actor’s hands.

I think about his wife and what she’s feeling right now having lost her beautiful man. I know what it’s like to lose someone to cancer having lost my husband three and half years ago when he was perfectly healthy and then suddenly got sick quickly, went into the hospital and was dead in ten days time.

I hope his wife had time to make peace with her husband’s dying. Though I suspect you can never make peace with such a thing.

I’m still trying to figure out how to go on without my husband.

Maybe you don’t ever really go on – maybe you just do something else.

It all ties in together – how you get from here to there, how you put one foot in front of the other and proceed.

I send my heartfelt prayers to his wife Vashti  and their two children at this time of great loss.